You know who are you. Each and every one of you. The family I’ve lost touch with along my journey through life.
Some of you I deliberately stopped communicating with at one point. I could no longer take the drama. I didn’t have the time or energy to listen while I was taking a full-course load and working full-time. I felt that all you did was bring me down. I made the choice to let the negative people go from my life and I’m sorry you were among them.
Some of you I spent too much time arguing with – the back and forth was not healthy. I think of you as the ones I would be willing to have a relationship with, if we could sit down and have an honest conversation about our differences and develop a game plan to move past them. I would offer this option to you, but in my heart, I know you would decline the offer.
Some of you I never got a chance to know. This is by far the biggest group of people I feel I’ve lost touch with, but honestly, I hardly remember most of you. You are the ones who left my life suddenly and without notice – not by your fault or my fault, but by situations and circumstances outside our control. You’re the cousins that I long to know, but have no idea how to start a conversation with – we’ve grown so much since we were 5, 6, and 8. I hope you remember those times spent together as fondly as I do and smile at them. Some of you I never got a chance to learn about, I only know we’re related somehow. I struggle with knowing how to strike up a conversation with family I know nothing about – perhaps it’s because family has always been complicated in my world.
I want you to know that I still think about you from time to time – all of you. From the ones I purposely don’t talk to to the ones I would love to get a chance to know – I think about you and wonder what life would be life if you were here in mine. Would we be best friends? Would we have endless conversations via text message? Would we plan trips together?
I hope that life is treating you well. All of you. I sincerely mean that from the bottom of my heart. Facebook shows that you’re doing well, and I hope that it’s the truth. I hope that you get everything out of life that you want. That all your dreams come true. That you get where you’re going and can look back on your life and smile.
And if we ever pass each other while walking along our paths of life, I hope you’re not afraid to say ‘hi’ or at least smile in my direction. I hope you remember that I’m always here for you – regardless of the time and distance that has come between us. Even though we no longer travel the same road, I promise to never truly abandon you.